It's Wednesday today, and I gave school a miss. Woke up, feeling so low, no energy no nothing. So went back to sleep instead of preparing for school. Just got up at about an hour or two back. Still as tired.
Well, below will be something I want to say to someone who've played a big role in my life:-
There's this guy who's been there for me for almost a year. He's always there for me, no matter what happens and how I've treated him. I've neglected him, very much. We used to hang out together alot, used to be really close and I feel really comfortable and safe with him around. He gives in to me all the time. Things started to change after I met someone. Someone whom I've got romantic feelings towards, even when I know that I'm just gonna hurt myself in the end. Too much feelings I've put in, and yes I hurt myself in the end. I've neglected him so much after I've met this someone, and yet he still wants to stand by me, be there for me all the time. I can see that he's trying hard to get us back on track but I seriously am not ready for another guy yet. Again and again, I rejected his love, care & concern. Again and again, I told him how much I don't want us to be more than just classmates and friends. I guess he couldn't take it anymore. He left. I just want to apologize so badly I don't want to hurt him anymore. He's always been the nicest to me, but I think I totally am not worth all his love. He's someone whom really made me teared many. I hope he's happier now. Qx, please take good care of yourself and I hope you'd forgive me and my decision made. I hope you'd really understand why. Goodbye.
Will be meeting Jw for dinner later.
Time please fly fast, I'm hungry already!
Bye.
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