Don't regret one day, when I walk away from you.

Believe me, I will. One day.

What are words - Chris Medina

"I won't leave you alone"

Do you remember?

Unfair.

It's Thursday tmr, and I'm no longer looking forward to it. Bye.

Suckiest day ever.

Suckiest day ever.

Seems like the distance between us is getting further and further. I really hate it we are like that now. I seriously need some heart to heart talk session, with someone close to me. I don't know what else can I do, I'm so gonna breakdown sooner or later. Just the matter of time. How long more can I actually hang on like that? I don't know. God bless me.

It seems like each time when I'm feeling this way, I couldn't concentrate on studies at all. I hate it like that. I realized all these emotional shits often occur during the start of a term or semester, fuck my life. This is definitely not a good thing. I need to get my heart and ass back to the books instead.

I totally ruined everything with my own motherfucking pair of hands. I miss you. I miss us.

Alright, school was fine. Seriously needs to start preparing for my upcoming tests already, no joke.

Met Justin today, talked quite a bit. Got pretty emotional due to some stuffs we talked about, it was crazy. I want to turn time back. I wish I could. I miss those good old days. Everything seems so different now.

Met Loren for awhile just now, thanks for the bubble tea ah! No, not Koi or Gong Cha, just Sweettalk. Lol, I don't mind man seriously. What's so bad about Sweettalk? Or rather what's so good about Koi and Gong Cha? I see no difference seriously, I wouldn't want to waste my time queuing up for just a cup of Bubble Tea. Lol. So yup, was craving for my cup of Honey Red Tea just now. So asked Loren to get it for me since he's over at Simei, slacked at the void deck for awhile before heading back home.

Oh btw, did I mention that Mommyluv actually got Bro and myself a set of new desktop yesterday? Was super happy, and yup right now I'm downloading hell lotsa stuffs. No more lags, shiok maximum! Hehehe.

So looking forward to Thursday, time please fly fast. I can't wait. And hopefully tmr will be a better day? Oh well..

Goodnight people, ciaos! :)

Omw home, on the bus.

Omw home right now, really sleepy ttm!

School was okay. Really have to put in the effort to wake up really early for school everyday before I get attrited from this course. Really torturing to the max, but definitely will try my best to.

Got an new iPhone case from Shihao, it's super cute I swear. He got it on his holiday trip to Malaysia. Thank you very much, I love it! :B

Went for some cca fair held in my school just now, went late and so some booths were closed already. Decided to sign up for kickboxing but yup, the booth's already closed like I've mentioned ): Will sign up online instead, hopefully we'll get in? Hehehe.

Guess what, I'm right now blogging on the bus. Pretty weird but nevermind, lol. I swear this bus is warm like whatever, I'm lucky I got a seat o(^▽^)o Just got up from my nap on the bus, shiok much. Hehe!

Okay, gonna meet Justin at simei in awhile's time!

Take care ☆〜（ゝ。∂）

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Fml

Damn my mind is so screwed. Time for a change.

You don't know

Hey.

Life's been pretty much the same for the past few weeks.

Guess what? I'm actually staying home on a Saturday night. Same goes for yesterday. Have to resist any temptation to party. School will be starting in a day's time. I'm still very much in holiday mood. Yes, fml. I've to try my best. Oh well..

School = Less time to party = Fml

I don't know if I'll be able to cope with my studies when school starts. I need to party lesser, I need to study hard? Skipping lessons, no more. Appealing for higher nitec was pretty tough, I thought I couldn't make it but yeap, I got into Integrated Logistics Mgmt. Well, it's definitely not something I want, but I'll try my best to do well. I hope?

Love life? I hate being caught in a dilemma like that. I won't want to mention what happen, it's hard to explain what am I actually dealing with right now. I hate the way I act right now. I'm being a bitch here, there's nothing else I can explain. I hate to push people away like that, but I really don't want to go ahead as a bitch. Either way, I suck. I regret getting myself into this position whereby I can't be right in any ways. Neither. Damn.

Bye, have a good night people.

Bad girl, bad bad girl.

Holaaaaa, just got back from a friend's chalet. It was alright but I didn't really enjoy myself much. Didn't eat much, and I swear Black Label is fucking disgusting. Wanted to stay over, but changed of mind in the end. Dad came to pick me up, and headed home together.

So, life's been pretty much the same every single day. I'm always hanging out at town, seeing almost the same faces every single day. Still party very much, as usual. I seriously don't know when I'll ever stop, oh well..........

It's Weds tmr, so totally can't wait. Lol, I'm always looking forward to these 3 days, Wed Fri and Sat. Hehe! Will be heading down to Soul for a little while, before hopping over to Rebel as usual!

On a side note, I've been a really bad bad bad girl lately! )':

Goodnight babies.

What's happening?

I got up at this really weird timing, about an hour back. I don't wake up this early usually, I was so totally worn out, thanks to the past two days. God, I still can't believe I actually did survive through the whole Thursday yesterday at Sentosa, and guess what? We partied on Wednesday night and had less than 3 hours of sleep before heading to Sentosa.

(Pictures will be uploaded soon)

So, it's been really happening for me this holidays. I almost am spending my everyday at town, spending my every party days at clubs or pubs. It gets a little boring here when everything becomes a routine, but nevermind................... Holidays' gonna end in awhile's. So yup.

I'm feeling pretty nervous for my results, 1st of April if I'm not wrong? Hopefully I won't do that badly )': Oh well.......................

So, that was the last time I see him. Outside Phuture. That was also the last time I got a hug and kiss from him. I do miss him, but this relationship seriously seems pretty pointless. Not because of whatever's gonna happen in the future but what's actually happening now. You are not doing your part, and I'm so tired of being the only one trying. I still pray hard for you, I don't want anything to happen to you. Just another few more days, I want to be there for you. I hope you really do understand me and how I actually am feeling deep down.

:)

Bye babies!

Kiss the Rain - Yiruma

Practising this piece on my piano, totally love it!

You're all I want/

Hey babies, I'm back!

Another boring Tuesday night.

Went for a movie with my boy last night, Red Riding Hood was awesome. Really, I don't know why so many were saying that the movie's just plain boring but I like it alot. Maybe it totally depends on the person you watch with, hmmmmmmmmm.......

So, Jenf came over to my place this morning. Had our brunch at Eastpoint, she came over to my place afterwards to play the piano. Woah, I realized it's been quite sometime since I've last touched the keys on my piano, somehow I miss those times when I actually practiced on the piano every single day, trying hard to figure out each piece of music. Oh well.......... Went to meet Kaijun & co. over at Bugis for sheesha, saw Joshua & co, haha! So coincidental! Left quite early due to their probation and stuffs. Yeap.

Tmr's Wednesday again, should I party? I've to seek permission from my boy first!

Look at my babygirls! Awwwww.....

Baby, don't be afraid of what's gonna happen, you know we'll all be right here for you. Yes, right here waiting. You might think that it's all bullshit I'm saying, up to you. Just take it as a lesson learnt, 2 years will be over soon. Don't worry, time flies fast. I love you with all my heart, you'd better feel the same for me! /xoxo

With much love,

Tessa.

x ciggies & ink(s)

Great, I'm seriously leading a motherfucking unhealthy lifestyle now. Idk what's happening to me, Idk what's going on with me, Idk what's gonna happen to me either. Fml seriously...........

So, what have I been doing lately?

Surprisingly, was over at Phuture with Qx & co last Friday. And guess what, we've spend more than 3 hours outside Holiday Inn, drinking and taking care of a bunch drunkards. So yeappppp didn't even enter the club after that. Luckily I went in through guestlist, if not I confirm dulan ttm!

Saturday, which is yesterday. Met Lucas, and headed to town to check out for my pair of Birkenstock. Ohyaaaa rmbr the other time, when I said that I'm actually getting myself a pair of Birks the next day? Yeap I went to check it out but it was out of stock, sadly. Left my name and contact details with them. So, I'm still waiting for their call right now, probably end of this month or the starting of next they said. Headed to Plaza Singapura to meet Christy & co for dinner at Mos burger, then back to Cineleisure. Parted with them then, while waiting for Billy to come over, killed my time at Scape catching up with Gavin. Supposed to party that night but end up Qx & co changed their mind so, went to Cathay to catch a movie with them after Billy went to Ph. "Unknown" was an awesome one I must say, damn naise! Headed to Soprano to drinkn right after, what a boring place! Seriously don't like thai pubs or discos, totally turned me off. Got home at almost 5, as usual.

I need to stop spamming ciggies seriously...............

And I need to book appointment for my tattoo asap.

On a happier note, I'll be seeing my boy in about 16 hours' time? Yay.

Gonna turn in now, goodnight!

_l_

What have I became? I don't know either. In just a year, I've changed so much. I miss how I used to be. That more innocent one compared to what I am now, a total nothingness. An ugly someone. I've picked up smoking, tattoos and so much of other bullshits which I thought I will never a year back. Ironic, isn't it? Tsk. Fuck everything. I hate myself, now. What's going on in me seriously? What's with me? I couldn't imagine what I will turn into in another year's time. Fuck life, fuck myself.

Childish bunch of sluts.

Cough & Flu bugs

Hey. t's been quite sometime people.

So, how's life? Mine's going on pretty well, but right now I'm actually having my final examination...... so I'm pretty much under stress. Have been staying home for the past few days, like literally home, have not stepped out of my crib since saturday morning till now (except for going to school for my Principals of Office Administration paper just now). Right after my paper, I went home, straight.

So, the flu and cough virus finally hit me. I'm totally done for. Have been coughing & sneezing really badly for days, my throat starts to hurt pretty badly and guess what, my nose actually bled this afternoon. I've been coughing so much throughout the whole one and a half hour paper today, it was pretty awkward but I just so couldn't care much.

& I had Mcdonalds this afternoon. Nice one.

On a happier note, I'm gonna get my pair of Birks tmr. Can't wait! Hopefully I won't change my mind last minute!

And, I won't be able to meet my boy these few days. Thanks to his job, he's got OT to do. So yeap )': But nevermindddd, we'll be meeting on Thursday. So looking forward, miss him much!

Alright, I guessss that's all for now.

Bye babies!

Paranoid.

Wednesday Morning

Woke up late, decided to give school a miss.

Will be meeting Jenf in the noon for some gyming session, can't wait!

Haven't been to the gym in the noon before.......................

Finally got my new set of Iphone earpieces, seriously damn happy!
I lost my previous one somewhere at Clarke Quay ):

Well, got it from Sim Lim ytd, got the orginal one @ SGD38 instead of the non-authentic one @ SGD20. With warranty from Apple and everything, so I thought 38 bucks would be worth it.

Looking forward to my 2nd session to complete and touch up the rose on my back, can't wait to complete seriously! Probably in another one or two weeks' time. Bro will be getting his done within these two weeks too I guess? Hee!

Well, still don't know the plans for tonight yet.

Party or what? Not sure yet!

Bye.

Luckily I didn't drag my feet out of that comfy bed at like 6.30am sharp, luckily I didn't attend school on time, luckily I only woke up at 10 this morning...............

Called Xm and guess what, lesson ended already!

School's supposed to end at 4pm today ley.
Teachers' on course, same for tmr.

Awesomez.

Will be meeting Jw later on, can't wait!

Tsk. Bunch of stalkers.........