Hi babies, I just got home. Had a heart to heart talk with Cindy after dinner just now, and I'm feeling slightly better. Though, things are still as fucked up as ever. What happened to the both of us? It is just a week ago when we were watching Burlesque at Cineleisure, and now?! Tsk tsk tsk. These are just all too sudden I couldn't accept them at all. What/Who have you become? I realize I don't know you anymore. What has happened? It pains my heart each time I ask myself questions like that, flashbacks just kept coming back. No, I didn't tear. It has all dried up days ago.
Where are you? I miss the old you. Things wasn't supposed to turn out like that. What did I do? What have I done? Do I really deserve all these shit(s) that's happening now? This is totally fucked up. You made me fall, and yet you decided not to catch me. Great. Oh well..
Not to deny, I hate you very much. I hate you for everything you've brought me upon. I'm not a toy, for you to play and then throw aside when you're getting sick & tired of. If your intention since the beginning is to just have fun..... Congratulations you definitely had fun and that you broke my heart too. And yes, I need to learn from this. What a lesson learnt! But of course, I don't wish things are like what I've actually thought. I definitely want to believe in "things are actually ain't that bad and that I'm thinking too much......", can I?
I just want you to be honest to me, that's all.
Sigh, 真的很累了.
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